Let's just go right ahead and say I failed at effectively blogging my 4 months in Spain.

To be perfectly honest, when I was there I felt cheated, for lack of a better word. Everyone promised me that my semester abroad would be the time of my life. It was such an expensive trip that I didn't get to explore the rest of Europe like I thought I would. Aside from my week in Morocco (which was incredible and one day I'll get around to documenting that here) I never even left Spain. I didn't make any close Spanish friends, I didn't connect with my host mother. I felt cold and tired constantly. And right when the weather got lovely and beach-worthy, I had to go home.

But after an airline mixup and a ridiculously expensive 24 hours stuck in Madrid by myself I realized how much my Spanish had improved in the last 4 months, at the very least in how comfortable I was in speaking it to people.

The day I landed in Michigan was Mother's Day, and some of my extended family was at the house to greet me, including my paternal grandfather (the only living grandfather I have and the last generation in my family to be native Spanish speakers). It was the first time in my life that he spoke more than a sentence to me in Spanish, despite that I've been studying it for over 10 years. We bonded over our distaste for Spaniards and the fact that we were the only two people in the house who could understand our conversation. It was a great feeling.

I've been home for about 5 weeks now. I've been splitting my time between New Boston and East Lansing, the former filling my hours with ambitious cooking projects and lots of quality time with my piano, parents and grandma; the latter with miles and miles of bike rides, farmers' markets, coffeeshop dwelling, and philosophical debates held over gin and tonics.

And I've come to realize that, while the adventure was definitely worth my time, my heart and happiness is here, in my humble existence among the people who love me.

East Lansing has become a bittersweet place for me, only because it is not a city of permanence, and I know that I cannot stay forever. What makes East Lansing amazing are the people I know there, and everyone leaves eventually. I am no exception; I have more adventures in me.

But this summer I will couch surf at my friends' house(s), bike to a bullshit job in a Mexican restaurant, volunteer, bike to the Allen Street Farmers' Market on Wednesday afternoons, crash house dinners at the co-ops, and occasionally come back to New Boston to hang out with my parents and sing at my piano.

Cheated is definitely the wrong word. How fortunate am I, that the "time of my life" isn't 4 months in a foreign country, but my every day?